Wow – so it’s Day 8 today, The thing is I’m really needing to write some stuff down. The weekend was pretty hard, winery dinner Friday night had the potential to go all wrong and didn’t – didnt touch a drop. But today, argh, it’s not that I feel like drinking, it’s that I feel so yuk. My neck and shoulders feel like they’ve been hit with a volt of electricity, sore, achy, painful, then sore again – what the heck. Then my partner just texted me something completely that gob smacked me, he knows that I think I have a problem with alcohol, but we haven’t really said a lot about it. Start to talk then differ the conversation somewhere else etc etc, he’s just texted me to say how proud he is of me – hes noticed I haven’t drunk???!?!?!?! Wow, I’m proud of myself and don’t feel like a drink today, but fuck I feel terrible!!!!!!!!