So it’s Day 37 today…. no easy feat for all of those that have decided to change bad influences and have a life of sobriety…

Interesting reflection last night, my eldest 12 year old boy discussed over dinner time the party he was going to on Wednesday night (Intermediate leaving party) and that he had discussed it with me on the weekend. Now given any time during my drinking pastime, he probably did tell me and I have drunkenly forgotten, but I’m sober, and he didn’t tell me.  Has my 12 year old gotten so used to me drinking that he knows that he can make things up like this, and I’m none the wiser…. sent chills down my spine…. I’m so pleased that their new childhood memories are of their Mum – without a wine glass in her hand….

Day 33 today… Had an interesting night last night, went to a cancer fundraiser dinner and drinks. Offered to pick the girls up and be sober driver – these new alcohol limits are a “Godsend” as don’t need to justify why I’m not having even one if driving, the evening was good.  Felt quite social when I was there, chatted with the girls. Bit of a moment as I thought I was only funny if I had a few wines in my – go figure, I’m funny sober too!  Who would have bloody thought…. Had an enjoyable evening, was a good laugh, and I was sober. Got home pretty proud and while in bed with OH, mentioned that I did really well and wasn’t even tempted, well not tempted like usual and having the squash away pains of longing…. just got on with it and had a good time.  and Fun time.  Mmmmm this feels good

Well, surprisingly I haven’t been on here for a while… Must have been busy in Mrs D’s community. A quote from Mrs D’s book got me through the past week

Remember: It stopped being fun, It stopped being fun, It stopped being fun….

It’s been a tough ole week, I think the diet had my mind on other things whereas now it is back to the booze… I managed to lose 2.8kgs in the 7 days and started feeling really good, have started healthy eating and exercising, the exercising is great, the healthy eating is not having the results I’d like, so may do another 7 days pre Christmas.

My neck and shoulders continues to ache, and the tiredness continues to wear me down… but I’m trying to be sensible about this, probably everyone is feeling tired and worn down at the moment, it is the silly season after all !

My significant other continues to be the world of support to me, just quietly he tells me how proud he is of me, I have given him Mrs D’s book to read and he doesn’t read it, but then he doesn’t really understand how big a deal it is – and I have to understand that. The booze isn’t his problem – it’s all MINE!

We were hoping to get married in May, nice affair, but money dictates that it would be better to do something quietly, we are thinking about taking his big boys and my little boys to the registrar’s office just as we leave to go to Auckland – we can be in our 9s getup and just celebrate with our children – so we all will be leaving on Friday 30 January – that will be my DAY 82 – wow, that would feel good – you will be seeing it in my hair, skin and eyes by then and hopefully the body will be starting to shape up

Must re-read this post regularly,

xx